First off, this is not a depressed rant. More of an intellectual musing. I have found that I have a very hard time letting go of people. Maybe it stems from my own fear of being forgotten. It is rare that my feelings for someone change. If I like you, I will probably always like you. If you were ever my friend, I will most likely love to pickup right where we were. I will always call you back, I will always remember what it was like, and how we had fun. I miss people terribly, and I frequently wish old friends would get back in touch. I have many friends whom I don't agree with about politics or religion, but I still consider them friends. I'm not sure how people do it. How can people just stop being friends. There has to be something huge to make me not want to have a relationship with someone. Is this the same for others? It makes me think that I have done something to make them just want to forget me. It is troubling, and I don't know how to reconcile it within myself. I understand that life changes, and situations change. People move, and grow up. Life gets busy and goals change, but a good friend is always a good thing. I'd like to think that I am a good friend. I'd like to think that I am unforgettable, like most people, I imagine. I thrive on human contact. Maybe others just don't. They don't need others around to stimulate their intellect or to empathize with the human experience. I just don't get how you can have such a connection with another person, share moments, experiences and feelings, and then nothing. I am not someone who feels awkward or regrets any experience, good or bad, with someone. I think it all is part of the tapestry that is the relationship. Anyway, that is all.
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